Well now, been a while

Hasn't it?

And that is due entirely to my rather tumultuous life, as it's been having it's way with me.

I'm talking about finances ya'll.


Kicking my ass in all newly invented sort of ways, and currently I don't know what to do about it.
You see, I have this dream guys.... this dream that me and my family are living a simple minimalist life off the grid. and the use of money has been for the most part, eliminated from our daily lives.



I don't want to be a rockstar okay? I don't want to be the next J.K. Rowling with my writing. I don't even want to make six figures a year.

All I want is to not need money anymore.

I want the security that money brings, not the money it self. And I want to find a way to do it without money. But it's going to take some slick moves on my part, some sacrificing, and a whoooooole lot of elbow grease. I think what's going to happen here is, I'm gonna have to do this in phases...

The first phase is: finding out what I like, or in other words... identifying, habits, hobbies and passions that I can get rid of, adjust, or completely throw myself into.

For example... habit: Watching TV... I want to get rid of this habit, because more and more I realize that television is not only becoming a worthless tool for education, but that it's presence is actually quite harmful to the psyche.
hobby: video games: which for some can be arguably considered a habit if it's taken to the point of constant playing every day. But for me, this is just an enjoyable hobby. However I do realize I may need to adjust the timing I partake in this hobby, namely I sometimes get into playing a game before I have completed personal tasks I've set out for myself... This is of course, a big no-no.

Passions: Writing... can't live without it, stories bounce around my head every waking hour, but when I am confronted with a blank screen or notebook paper, something happens and I freeze up...

This will not do... and I think the reason is because I've been under stress this past month and there's just alot of spiritual clutter I need to clear up to open me up to my muse again.

Basically , what I'm trying to say here is simply this.
Find what's important, be honest, break it down to the bare necessities, and do what will make you happy and will help you progress into being a better person every day.

keep on moving forward, even if it's a very tiny change, as long as it's in the right direction, you can go to sleep at night knowing you've made some progress.


alright everybody... I love you all, even if there are no eyes watching just yet. this love will not change. See ya next time.

Why am I here?

Simple I am part of God’s plan. And this is not just God in the biblical sense, this is the all inclusive, understanding, all connecting thing that is voiceless yet somehow speaks to us all. I am talking about the source. Of all Love, I am talking about… me… and you, and people those we like and those we dislike. They are all just different instances of yourself. To put it another way, Think of a single blood cell. Is it separately a structure all its own? Of course,  but, if you could give a blood cell conscious, would it look all the millions of blood cells it shares a body with and see them as different and separate than itself? It would be right in a sense, but oh, so terribly wrong. For it is one part of a greater whole. A small but very necessary piece to complete the single organism. That is, our nature with one another, we are only a small part of a greater organism., the only difference is, we are conscious.