The Realization Dawns

So something just hit me like a kick to the temple, and I am compelled to write about it here.

I'm a writer.

no seriously... I. Am. A writer.

It is my passion, my talent, my gift to share with others...

I have a love for words and how, when arranged in just such a way, they can inspire the greatest of ideas into the collective consciousness of the whole. I have a deep respect for that. I am also aware that words in and of themselves are cheap when used without a conscience and with ill intent. No evil is more powerful than a greater act of love.

But hold on there...

Despite my obvious infatuation with the idea of bringing about awareness in this world with my writing, I also realize something else very important.

I haven't been doing any real writing.

Not in a long time.

I haven't committed myself to sitting before a screen and keyboard, in dim lighting, with nothing more that my rampant ideas and meditation music.

Been a long time since I've done that

Here's the big realization though...

Like a slap to the back of your neck right after you stepped out of the shower

(Fucking Ouch?)

I am less than half way into this Blog 30 day writing challenge.

And I am almost certain, that if I were to take all that I've written here, copied and pasted it into a word processor, I'd probably have more than enough for a good chapter and a half. which is more that I've written for that novel I've been working on for my whole life.

Yep...

I keep making it out like some sort of great task, like every time I sit down to write, I have to complete a chapter or bust.

But it's not like that at all.

I think I've found where I've been going wrong, I just got to chip away at it in tiny little parts, no matter how insignificant they may seem to me, every day just keep chipping away, until one day I look at the work and find, holy shit, I've got 300 pages here.... how'd that happen?

Everyone's got their own system of doing things, I think I may have incidentally stumbled upon mine.

and it's really all thanks to this new blogging experience I've submitted myself to.

Wow...

Awesome...

No seriously It is awesome.