(Day 13) Goals

Wow, okay so this one... this one right here?



I don't know, it could be so many things, or really so few as to only be one thing. And considering the quality of my posts thus far, just posting one thing would appear to be just another cop out.

So I'm not going to do that, I'm really going to try here.


Goals....

1. Complete a novel. This isn't some pretentious endeavor to vomit my thoughts on a page (That's what this blog is for. Just kidding.) I am not trying to gain accolades or have my words be treated like gospel. I don't want to publish the next Harry  Potter, I don't want to do interviews on late night shows, an I don't want perfect monochrome pictures of me smiling with some naturescape backdrop plastered all over the back of my books. My intent, is only to teach some sense of morality. Have people question the state of things and connect to the greater unconscious. I want people to choose love over fear, and writing is my medium for that.


2. Establish and maintain a healthy lifestyle. This of course includes dropping alot of the weight I've packed on over time. I mean sure, I'd like to look good, but I want to feel good too. I have a growing baby and I am definitely going to need the energy to chase her around. And also, how will I raise a child to eat and live healthy if I don't know how to myself. It's more a matter of self discipline I suppose. Which leads me to the next goal...


3. Defeat procrastination. Once and for all. This has been the bane of my existence, the reason for all my suffering. And it has thrived because it has always been self inflicted. I must transcend it, or shut the fuck up forever, because I'll forfeit my right to opinion, complaint, or my right to give advice to even another soul. It's time to do what I was sent to this world to do or forever hold my peace.


4. Successfully raise a healthy, socially aware, intelligent young woman. Alex you're my only hope. This one needs no explanation.

5. Naturally grow my hair to mid back. Oh my god it would just be so awesome to get my hair that long again naturally... When I Was a little girl, before I had gotten a perm, my hair was nearly to my waist... I want it to get that way again so badly!

Okay, that's pretty much it then... It's been a really long day and I'm pretty drained.. I would write more otherwise.

Good night everyone.