(Day 16) Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it.

I like how this blog challenge would follow up one post about death row meals (in which you know you'll go all out and get crazy,) with a post about your personal body image.


So here's the thing, you already know I am participating in that youtube "Shake your Money-Maker" weight loss contest. And I wouldn't be doing that if there wasn't at least a small amount of dissatisfaction with my body image.

I have never been a small girl. I developed early and was an eleven year old with a B-cup, and didn't stop growing till... like five minutes ago... or something like that.

If I had a scanner I would upload some progressive photos so you guys can get the picture.


At my very best I was a full figured curvy thing. not at all fat by any stretch of the imagination, but no super model either. (And I would never want to be.)

I was in my best shape about 3 1/2 years ago, when I was a member of curves and kept a relatively regular workout regimen of 3 times a week. It was looking good for a time, until I started working at The Home Depot, and for reasons unknown  to me, I packed on the pounds, In  2 years I gained about 30 pounds

And then I got pregnant...

yeah...

But here's the fun part. I've lost all the weight gained from pregnancy. In fact I weigh a few pounds less than I did before then, the problem is, everything kind of, distributed itself differently.

I hate how my gut hangs like I'm still a few months pregnant, I am still astounded that the boobs are like twice and a half times their normal size (which were already pretty substantial to begin with) and I can't stand the arm luggage I got going on.

Now, to be fair it's not exactly terrible... I mean, I'm no Fat Albert or anything, but I am not satisfied, not pleased....

I want more energy I want to look good in a bikini and out of one...

Oh and I'm surprised I haven't mentioned this yet, but I have huge scars beginning at the top of my right hip, going down and across to the bikini region. This is from a really bad auto accident I had in which my pelvis was fractured and... blah blah blah.

Although I'm not in any way self conscious about it, I'm not happy it's there either.


so overall, I am not satisfied with my body image at this time... but I'm working on it... I have high hopes too.